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11月10日 November - sad? happy? who knows.I have always had an ambivelant feeling about November. It is a great month because it was in this month that I was born, I celebrate a birthday soon (29th, if you care) but also it is almost the end of another year a time when i start to reflect on what I have achieved or failed to achieve. For the most part I find myself happy to have survived. I think that I am worried that I may not have reached my full potential and this worries me. All this worry used to cause me a great deal of stress and frustration but as I have gained a certain amount of age and a lot of perspective I realise that I need to pour my stress, irrational insecurities and open hostility out on to other people. That way i don't have to think about the possibility that I may explode. November has always done this to me. I become a soul searching, pessamist with a need to say woe is me. This year however I am determined to change the pattern that has blighted my otherwise happy life. I have two blogs which I can use to vent my spleen. This one for personal reasons, the other for gaming reasons. I am, at the request of some friends, running an online and email game which has just begun. The rules are being hammered out and the idea seems to be flowing. This has given me some satisfaction. Enough I have ranted, moped and drivelled and now feel brighter so it is time to finish. John |
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